You

A swell rise inside me,
only peaks abundant,
like a thousand fluttering fireflies.
The lights, fairy like,
ebbing in continuum.
I struggle to make sense,
wrestle to find labels, words and tags.
So many,
come to mind, yet none do snugly fit.
One could cipher happiness,
correctly so,
but only part of a whole,
I'd point out.
Some nostalgia thrown in too,
a solitary tear trickling,
a smile playing upon my lips,
music long forgotten,
a song etched into my soul.
Sense of accomplishment galore,
a pinch of pride too.
The realization of Lady luck's benevolence,
a silent prayer to the stars.
Finding love, and knowing it,
enough to drown myself in,
and yet yearn to drown some more.
Try as hard as I may, words elude,
almost as if Medusa's gaze invaded my mind.
Although, Ask my bleeding heart,
And with vigor it will repeat: You.

Know Thyself

Okay. No.

 This is plain weird. I have never ever directly typed out whatever came out of my mind, and posted it. I don't know why I feel like doing this today. I  can't point my finger at the 'why' and answer it. But I sure do know that something is amiss. I normally don't crave for so much of company. I have been quite a loner, and don't really mind my own company. Sometimes, I'd rather be alone than in someone's company. Today is different, I have absolutely no idea, why I feel this way.

 This is how it is. The mind is such a malicious thing. It makes us feel, such a variety of things and that too for no apparent sensible reason. I cannot possibly fathom the cause of this disturbance. Sometimes, I wish that we could sit face to face, and have a frank conversation with our minds to know what was exactly going on. 

Picture this: Mr.Mind and me, are sitting across the table, at a coffee shop, sipping coffee, and I ask him, "Hi mind, why are you behaving in this weird, inexplicable fashion?".

Sigh.Wish.

But then, here I am, with my laptop open, logged into blogger and typing out this article, straight from my volatile mind. It's not like I have nothing better to do. If I sat down this second to jot down all the work that I have to finish, I can assure you it'd be one really long list!

Then, Why am I here? Why am I typing this out?

I have a set of very close friends. Strangely, I don't feel like calling up any of them, and talking to them about this. Guess, this is something I want to talk to just myself about. Again, Sigh. Wish.

Well, the best way for me summarize it, is in poetry, so here goes:

Know Thyself

Are you playing with me now?

'what makes you think so?'

These moods,

those thoughts,

come on, you think

 I don't know your style?

'don't you go around,

fooling yourself this way!

knowing me, aint that easy,

you'd hope, beg and pray!'

You're the one fooling me,

confusing me,

and giving me a real tough time,

this way!

'cribbing won't take you

anyplace.

nor will engaging in a

litany.'

What else is there for me?

with you not even by my side.

Advice me, show me some

insight!

'calm down, soothe

those wild thoughts,

be aware, awaken,

take charge,

control me, let not me control you!

Know Thyself.'

Magic words, 

will they help?

'know thyself,

that's enough for all.'

Well, that answered all my questions didn't it. Simple solution, Calm down, think straight, take it slow, and most of all, know yourself. Know yourself well, and accept yourself first, for whatever you are.

Note: Everything single word in this post is truly unedited.

Fruit of sheer Boredom

Its been more than a week, since I have come on this vacation to Kuwait. Kuwait is where I have done my schooling, and spent most time in my life. But without my friends here, or school to look forward to here, boredom had taken charge of my life. In order to yawn it away, I just picked up a pencil and a sketch pad. This is what lay in front of me after two hours.

This is my first sketch after more than a year. Hah. High time I went back to sketching classes to learn, and improve my technique.

Do let me know of your thoughts on this one :)

Awesome !

I am incredibly happy ! Though a little upset over some aspects, over all, I am Happy, and Content. It was a decent show, and I have recieved some fabulous appreciation, and also some criticism. I got cited, and covered by seven local newspapers ! And It all feels awesome !!

It is such an exhilarating feeling to have pursued a passion, and listen to some praises, comforting words, from the eminent people present, and the audienence alike. It was a proud moment for my parents, and I felt even more proud to have put them in those shoes.

Two pics of the event close to my heart :)

I want to thank evry single person who made this evening possible, and those who have been my support in every walk of life.

The Eight tag !

I was 'tagged' into this by 'Just a mother of two'. I throughly enjoyed doing it, i had to struggle for some of them, but still was fun!

8 Tv shows I like to watch

Though I usually don't have the time to follow all of these shows regularly. I do watch them whenever I have the time
1.Friends
2.CSI: Miami/NY
3.Movies on HBO
4.Sarabhai Vs Sarabhai
5.Mostly songs on Mtv
6.Aircrash investigations
7.Ripley’s believe it or not
8.So, you think you can dance? on AXN

8 favourite places to eat
1.Mom’s kitchen ;)
2.Chutneys-south Indian restaurant /Kebab Factory, Jubilee hills
3.Udupi at Munirka, New Delhi
4.Thakkars- a chat place in Kuwait
5.Anshula aunty's place
6.Mc Donalds
7.Pizza hut
8.Ammumma's(granny's) place

8 things I look forward to
1.A reunion with school friends
2.My graduation
3.Acceptance letters from the 1000s of universities I’ve applied to
4.Going to Kuwait
5.My Arangetram in Kuchipudi
6.Holiday in Austria
7.A day at the Spa
8.My wedding :D

8 things that happened yesterday
1.Got enough sleep after ages
2.Dad arrived from kuwait
3.Cheated on my diet :P
4.Read this tag, and decided to do it
5.Put mehendi on my hands
6.Decided to fast for Navaratri
7.Fought with mom :(
8.My BF wrote me a romantic poem

8 things I love about winter
1.I get to wear my yellow jumper
2.Can snuggle up in bed
3.Hot tomato soup
4.Being able to wake up early enough to see the sunrise :P
5.Hot chocolate
6.Winter vacation!
7.Christmas parties!
8.Bonfires and snow!

8 things on my wish list
1.To be the topper in my batch
2.To write a book
3.To perform on stage once more and prove myself
4.To settle down
5.To take enough time off work to do a world tour
6.Be a close to ideal-daughter, sister, wife and parent.
7.To get to size zero
8.To be more competitive/understanding/loving/caring/empathetic

8 things I’m passionate about
1.Singing
2.Dancing
3.Movies
4.Writing/Blogging
5.Reading
6.Cooking
7.Drawing/Painting
8.Being the best in the Trade

8 words or phrases I use often
1.Shit!
2.What the hell?
3.Oh my God!
4.You’re kidding me!
5.Moron!
6.I Love you!
7.Lite/Chill
8.So?

8 things I learn from the past
1.Big things come in small packages
2.Looks are often deceptive
3.There is no rule that every person on earth should like you
4.Nothing pays like hard work
5.Don’t let someone else decide what you are, and what you’re not
6.Be stubborn when you have to be.
7.Accept people for what they are
8.Live in the present

8 places I would love to visit
1.Kuwait
2.Horsley hills
3.Ooty
4.Manali
5.Venice
6.Paris
7.Kerala
8.Colorado

8 things I currently need/want
1.A warm hug
2.Jijo call me now!
3.A good night’s sleep..yawn
4.A new Blackberry!
5.A sony vaio
6.A massage!
7.A holiday
8.A bar of chocolate

I tag everyone who reads this! T'was fun ! Enjoy!