Time Heals.

Been trying,

seems like forever now.

Evades me, 

makes me relive,

those moments,

perhaps, forbidden ones too.

Happiness, sorrow,

treachery, love.

Reeling in my closed eyes.

Revisiting those places,

left far behind.

On a road, 

forgotten, till now.

Laughter still rings,

Cries and screams echo.

Haunt, even.

On an old path,

long gone.

Still feel my heart thumping,

loud and clear.

Still hear the voice calling.

Even feel my feet carrying me,

towards the alluring call.

Warm embrace, cold breath,

fingers entwined. 

Remember the giddy,

heady, overwhelming 

sweet pain. 

A sigh reverberates.

It is all over now. 

Time heals, does it really?

Grey hair, and wrinkles galore,

Yet,

only takes a moment,

to go back to that time.

Where my wounds are still sore,

blood still ebbs, 

and stands my body,

ripped apart from its Soul.

Agneepath-An Ode

You didn't read it wrong. The title does say 'An Ode'. What normally is supposed to be a review has turned to an ode. I guess, that in itself is an indicator on how much I liked the movie. Though it'll be almost impossible for me to express, and explain why the movie struck a cord with me, or touched my heart; I could give you the top five reasons, as to why you should drop whatever you're doing, and head out to watch this movie. For me the movie was much more than just some revenge saga, it was an epic that unfurled on the silver screen. Anyway, before I get all soppy over it. Here are five reasons why Agneepath is a must watch!

• Sanjay Dutt : Don't let his awful look in the promos, cheat you into thinking that Sanju baba has not done a great job. He has perhaps given the best performance of his entire career. He is the personification of evil itself, in this movie. And truly evil seems to ooze from ever pore in his body on screen. His action is so so perfect, that you hate Kaancha. You want to cheer as Vijay kills him!

• Hrithik Roshan:  Where do I even begin ? He has done such a fabulous job. Right from his look, to his dialogues, his brooding eyes. Everything. He is the perfect Vijay Deenanath Chauhan! He has brought about so many shades to the character. He is passionate, he thirsts for revenge, he is brutal, he craves for his mother's love, he is cold and calculating.And that's just the beginning! You could watch the movie, just to see Hrithik do all this on screen. I see a filmfare in his kitty at the end of this year!

• Rishi Kapoor: Who could've even imagined that the grey eyed, lover boy of the 80s could play Rauf Lala to such perfection? Lala is foul mouthed, and coarse, and Rishi kapoor brings him to life with absolute perfection. Personally in some scenes, I forgot that I was watching Rishi Kapoor on screen, and absolutely wanted to pelt Lala with stones!

• Dialogues : I'm just awed by the dialogues in the movie.They're so well written, and fit the plot perfectly. The dialogue sequence between Father and son in the first 10 minutes, effectively set the tone of the movie, and form the crux of the entire story. The poem Agneepath by Shri. Harivansh Rai Bacchan has been used aptly, creating the mood for the movie. For me, it was absolutely inspirational, and I took much more than just the experience of Agneepath home.

• Chikni Chameli: Last but not in the least, "Chikni chameli" is enough a reason for people to go n watch this movie. Katrina is an absolute treat to watch on screen. The song is peppy, and Katrina's moves are a perfect match for it. She is one person who has grown from movie to movie. And with this one she can be queened!

P.S: Kudos to Karan Malhotra! He has managed to keep the soul of the original intact, and yet give us a complete epic. He's shown us that this is how a remake is made!

So people, don't waste any time. Grab the tickets for Agneepath! Abhi, Isi waqt!

The canvas, called life

The biggest and most difficult decision is life always about, what we want to make of it. So, how do most of us take that call? How do we know what the right thing to do is or even to not do? How do we know that what we’re doing today will benefit us tomorrow? How do we know that we’ll be happy?

Now, let me try to answer all those questions to the best of my experience and knowledge.

The call. The trickiest thing ever, to be or not to be. This is perhaps the toughest one. I for one, never ever know, even till the last minute, and more often than not, just end up trusting my gut. I find this one so difficult, that once, out of sheer frustration, unable to discuss or argue further about whether to do or not, I simply tossed a coin.

Heads, I do it. Tails, I don’t.

At other, more sensible and sane times, I call up my closest friends, and pour my heart out to them, and let them give me inputs and then decide. And sometimes, I just blindly follow the societal norm of what’s expected and do it. So many different ways for just one person to decide.

But that is the nature of the hurdles life throws to us. Sometimes, it’s an easy catch, and sometimes we need to dive, and scrape our elbows for it!

The next hurdle is always after you take the call, whether the call we’ve taken is right or not. Now, that’s something that we have no way of knowing before taking the call. Some decisions on the face of it appear to be the most correct, but might not be so in reality, while others may appear to be not so good, but might benefit us the most!

So, what I believe is that only 50% of the decision is ever completely in our hands, for the other 50%, we just need to take a leap of faith. Which means, jump first, and pray real hard that there be a cushion underneath!

In short, what I mean to say is that let your life take you places, but then once there, you always have the choice of what you’re going to make out of it. From there on courage, determination, discipline and love help us make our lives.

Our life is like an empty canvas, life gives us the assortment of paints that we’re to use on it, to make it beautiful and fruitful. Now, it’s our choice what kind of shades we choose to paint on it, and in what way. We may just splash random colours, and make a mess of it, or plan ahead, choose the right shades, and make a gorgeous painting out of it.

And what’s to happen when the paint runs out? No worries, life will always give us the option to open a whole new set of paints, with different shades, they might be different from what we’ve used before, but there’re also paints.

Wonder who’s the paintbrush in the entire scenario?

Some people like to call it destiny, some fate, and some others like to call him God. Just like the paintbrush helps to transfer the paint onto the canvas, God/fate/destiny helps us to find our path in life.

So, don’t fret if life isn’t a smooth ride right now. It might be a bumpy ride right now, but yes, Life will take us to that special place, and we’ll make it a haven, a wonderful place of our own, and carve out our niche.

A little something I drew for a Friend's birthday

For a friend who'd been there for me always, in my best and worst times, I felt that just buying something wouldn't give me the satisfaction. So, I decided to sit down, and sketch a little something for him, have it framed, and sent. This is what I sketched, and yes, my friend loved it :)

Know Thyself

Okay. No.

 This is plain weird. I have never ever directly typed out whatever came out of my mind, and posted it. I don't know why I feel like doing this today. I  can't point my finger at the 'why' and answer it. But I sure do know that something is amiss. I normally don't crave for so much of company. I have been quite a loner, and don't really mind my own company. Sometimes, I'd rather be alone than in someone's company. Today is different, I have absolutely no idea, why I feel this way.

 This is how it is. The mind is such a malicious thing. It makes us feel, such a variety of things and that too for no apparent sensible reason. I cannot possibly fathom the cause of this disturbance. Sometimes, I wish that we could sit face to face, and have a frank conversation with our minds to know what was exactly going on. 

Picture this: Mr.Mind and me, are sitting across the table, at a coffee shop, sipping coffee, and I ask him, "Hi mind, why are you behaving in this weird, inexplicable fashion?".

Sigh.Wish.

But then, here I am, with my laptop open, logged into blogger and typing out this article, straight from my volatile mind. It's not like I have nothing better to do. If I sat down this second to jot down all the work that I have to finish, I can assure you it'd be one really long list!

Then, Why am I here? Why am I typing this out?

I have a set of very close friends. Strangely, I don't feel like calling up any of them, and talking to them about this. Guess, this is something I want to talk to just myself about. Again, Sigh. Wish.

Well, the best way for me summarize it, is in poetry, so here goes:

Know Thyself

Are you playing with me now?

'what makes you think so?'

These moods,

those thoughts,

come on, you think

 I don't know your style?

'don't you go around,

fooling yourself this way!

knowing me, aint that easy,

you'd hope, beg and pray!'

You're the one fooling me,

confusing me,

and giving me a real tough time,

this way!

'cribbing won't take you

anyplace.

nor will engaging in a

litany.'

What else is there for me?

with you not even by my side.

Advice me, show me some

insight!

'calm down, soothe

those wild thoughts,

be aware, awaken,

take charge,

control me, let not me control you!

Know Thyself.'

Magic words, 

will they help?

'know thyself,

that's enough for all.'

Well, that answered all my questions didn't it. Simple solution, Calm down, think straight, take it slow, and most of all, know yourself. Know yourself well, and accept yourself first, for whatever you are.

Note: Everything single word in this post is truly unedited.