Thursday, June 30, 2016

Just like Waves

Like every other poet-ess of my time, I believe that the best expression of my thoughts is through my poetry. So, here is one to talk about my state of mind at the moment.

Just as waves do,
They surge, they ebb.
High and mighty,
Ascending to dizzying heights,
Low, and down below,
Drowning to the sinking abyss.
Such is the journey,
Called Life.
Just like the sand.
A clean slate,
Waiting for the imprints,
Of the myriard laughs you bring.
As your feet dig in,
A memory is sown.
Such is the journey,
Called Life.
Just like the shells,
Scattered about.
Some oyster like,
Holding pearls of happiness within.
Priceless.
Others hollow and empty,
Worthless.
Ensuing one misery,
After the other.
Such is the journey
Called Life.
Just like the Sun,
Sinking for the day into
The black depths of the ocean.
Ascertaining, the value of every ray.
Soon to be extinguished.
With the promise of a come back,
Once again,
Again and again.
Such is the journey,
Called Life.


Monday, June 27, 2016

A Friend in Need

 I had just showered. As I dried my damp hair, I walked into my closet. I ran my hand over the various ensembles I could put together. I studied my reflection in the mirror as I had done every morning.  An off white blouse, with a dark grey skirt, or perhaps a mustard yellow blouse with a navy blue skirt- one of them would surely do the trick, for the client presentation today. My clients were all I lived for after I’d started working as an Analyst for a financial firm. Don’t get me wrong. I loved my job. It kept me on my toes, and still excited me after four years. The downside was my dwindling social life. I hardly had the time to keep in touch with my old friends, let alone, make new ones.

 The mustard yellow blouse appealed to me today. After a quick breakfast, I examined my final look in the mirror. I hurried down the stairs; I was running late, again.  As I approached my car in the parking space across the road, I noticed that something was not quite right. I could see flies hovering around on the inside of the car. That was not possible; Unless, the window of the car was broken! Indeed, the passenger’s the side window was broken. Powdered glass debris lay scattered all over the seat. I moved cautiously towards the driver’s side of vehicle in a state of shock, prepared for the worst. That’s when I saw the worst of it: the dashboard had been vandalized! The custom made stereo system, along with the speakers had been pulled out- wires et al.

 I was dazed. I had only heard of car theft. I had no idea what was supposed to be done when confronted with something like this. I could feel the tears flowing down my cheeks, and the sobs escaping my mouth in between gulps of air. I felt defeated, alone.That’s when my neighbor, for the better part of the last one month approached me. I remember him handing me a bottle of water to drink, as he patted my back, uttering reassurances of “there, there”.  He then proceeded to take a look at my car, taking in the damage.

 “Is your car insured?” he asked me, “Oh yes! It is.” I answered, suddenly realizing that I could put in a claim for more than half of this damage. I heaved a sigh of relief. The situation was redeemable! He then proceeded to ask me whether I had reported the theft to the police, and then explained the procedure with the insurance company. He even offered to drive me to the police station and the insurance company office in his vehicle. “Don’t worry, I’ll help you wrap this up. I know a couple of people down at the station”, he said.

 I felt blessed to have him beside me on that day. He was true to his word. He not only drove me to the station and insurance company, but also took care of all the other paper work, just taking my signatures on the dotted lines. We even grabbed a pizza along the way; he had turned this adversity into a picnic! He was an angel in disguise for me that day. He spent an entire day helping someone he hardly knew; to ease their distress. He made me believe that humanity wasn’t dead, that all the world needed to become a better place was more people like him.

 “Hey! I completely forgot to ask you. What’s your name?” I asked him as we just pulled up into his parking spot. “I’m Krish”, he said extending his hand to shake. “I’m Siya”, I said drawing him into a hug. I’d made a new friend.  

Monday, June 20, 2016

The Birthday

Tomorrow would be a very special day for me. A day that came just once every year; my birthday. I would finally turn ten years old. I would be a big girl! I could almost taste the excitement on my tongue. I would wake up to the sound of the puja bell as usual. Alka didi would bring me the set of colourful new clothes that I had picked last week. Kaka would get ladoos for all of us. Best of all, I would go to the mandir to pray, and meet my grandmother for some time. She was the only one who had wanted to know that I was well.

Alka didi had taken me and Munni to the bazaar so that we both could pick the colours in which we wanted our birthday kameezes. This was a very special outing for us. New clothes were a privilege, bestowed upon us only once a year.

I had relished this special outing for as long as I could remember. Alka didi would walk us out onto the main road, where she would hail a three-wheeled rickshaw. We would scramble onto the rickshaw, and breathe in the sights, smells and sounds of the city around us. The ice lollies from the carts came in so many vivid shades, they had to be very tasty. The corn on the cob, roasted golden made my mouth water. The deep fried potato curry stuffed samosas yanked at my growling stomach, and the puffed rice masalas, took my yearning to a different level.

However, Munni and I had long learned that, these were just like our new clothes: privileges. We had learnt not to clamour for them.  We were taught to be grateful to our Didis. We were taught that we were lucky to even be alive, and well. Nobody had wanted us. Our parents had either thrown us into dumpsters, or left us at the doorstep of the House. Since then, the Didis had taken care of all our needs. We had enough to eat, we were educated at the school, and were taught skills to help us survive in the world outside. There were forty-five of us altogether in this house. Unlike most people who celebrated their birthdays on the days that they were born on; we celebrated our birthdays on the days when we were found by the Didis.

 This day, this year, was indeed very special. It was the day I was wanted by someone. My grandmother finally came for me, and took me back home.


Even today, 20 years later, when I think back to that special day, I grow misty eyed. I was one of the lucky ones to have been found by the didis, who had been adopting and supporting orphan girls, in the city. Those first ten years of my life could have gone horribly wrong if it were not for them.

Tuesday, June 14, 2016

Glad to see ya again!

So, it's been (quite) a while since I've put anything up on this blog. I have many excuses (busy at work, busy with life, was studying); all of which shouldn't have stopped me from writing over here. However, throwing all those excuses into a bin, I am back here writing once again! Glad to see ya again :)

Here's a poem I wrote recently:

The Gift.
Sorted. Wrapped up.
Tied with a bow.
All clear. Set to go.
Such was the gift,
Served up in gold.
Watered, nurtured.
Pampered and praised.                                                     
Abundant glory, joy galore!
Why then do
I face this day?
Burnt, blistered and charred away.
Eyes gouged out,
Tasting ashes upon my tongue,
mind bruised, body battered.
Heart in pieces, stripped to the bone.
Tears bountiful, crawling with sorrow,
Lay afire in shreds.
The agony, the woe.
The pangs and throes.
Peals of laughter, echo.
Real or feigned?
Fact or Mirage?
Insanity beckons.
Just then, It calls.
Deliverance. A voice,
So sanguine, I cry!
I rise, where I lay.
Bit by bit, limb by limb.
No fib this is, I catch on.
Light floods my being,
Carrying me away.
Phoenix like, I Rise.
Dusting off the ashes, born anew.
Staring into the,
The rising Sun.
Rigged to take life,
By the horns.